Truth.

Reality bites you in the ass where you think it wouldnt, it can depress you, knowing that everything you were living and experiencing has been and gone and you have to get back to your own responsibilities to your own life. A bit like Shirley Valentine you know? Someone who wanted something more exciting an adventure to Greece without the troubles and burdens of cooking the same thing for your husband every day doing the laundry something away from the mundane and the stresses of everyday life. Something that makes you happy even if briefly. When you come back to that you cant help but be disappointed that is all over.



I think thats why you need to have something to look forward to, otherwise you feel your not living, otherwise your just working 24/7 like mother nurses, like the social workers who are always getting shat on all the time for not doing their job properly, for the people that commute to london to everyday, the housewives, the people working hard earning a living in the hope that their families can come see them, in the hopes that they have enough money to get their family to come live with them.

The reality is I suppose that life isnt always going to be exciting which is why the prospects of a holiday are so exciting because of the experience into the unknown. The truth is we are all hoping for an exciting life. I suppose it comes down to how you make out your life to be; your attitude. The truth is about reality is some things never change.



You come back; and nothing has changed at all. Some things stay the same.
Perhaps at the end of the day what it comes down to is the small things; because we cant always get what we want.

Love.

Hands intertwined, twisting together fatefully
Holding together for eternity and forever
Romeo and Juliet, star crossed lovers dont you see?
Destiny doomed from the beginning,
Yet a love so strong, nothing could break it

Magical gold dust, remember the times when
Everything was so perfect and time passed by
The happy ending you anticipated
Was never there, just a dream you made it

Love the only redeeming quality
Like Wuthering Heights
Between Cathy and Heath

Time is moving faster,
The clocks are ticking louder
Do you remember what we had?
Do you wish that more was said

I dont regret a thing,
Even in my dreams I see you
My lover, my friend, my dreamboat
You were the best thing ever
That happened to me
Between dreams and reality.

Faith in Adversity

A bottle of alcohol, empty cigarette packets

Strewn across the damp dirty floor

Moundless heap lies in the bed

Too many words left unsaid

Never moving, never getting up

Never there for you, never hugging you

Never loving you, or helping you

Always faced down into the floor



Amazing that in the face of adversity

You hold on for grim death

Despite the bullying taunts at school

Your a bitch, a liar a whore

The mother who doesnt care

What does it matter anymore?



Swimming against the current

Holding on to the possibilites

The dreams, the hopes,

Of something a little bit better



There are moments behind closed doors

That you dont want to remember anymore

How do you find the strength to carry on?

To find meaning in every single day?



Then there are the beggars in the streets

The children living in slums, the hungry

The poor, all wanting something a bit more



Struggle to survive through these tough times

Promise that everything will be alright

If you can get through this you can get through

Anything at all



Running away from the faces of evil

Walking towards the faces of angels

Sitting and hoping and praying to God

That everything wil be alright today



In a world of violence, of beatings

And many harsh words

Where a man with a gun holds all power

With sparks of ignition and meteroite showers

You worry that things will remain the same

But you know despite everything things will change.

Believe that miracles happen

Because they do, everyday

Just remember that my dear

I promise everything will be okay.

Human Statue.

Tear drops hit the pearlescent lake
Droplets of water fall down
Remember the day the rain came?
Do you remember when it crashed down?
Do you remember when I was suddenly found?


The trees sing so quietly in the breeze
You sit there so quietly, in your own world
Seasons changed from winter to spring
Yet you still remained the same
You havent moved, still as stone
Rigid as a human statue

Time changes, clocks tick faster
Yet there you sit and wait
Waiting for your loved one
To come right back

The angels above took pity
Saw the raindrops fall over the city
Felt your pain and suffering and reminiscently
Held your smooth pale white hand
Saw your face dissolve like pure gold sand
Hope disappearing fast,
Nothing was meant to last


Grey and cold but there you sit
You look so derelict
For a spell was cast on you
To stop the pain
Once was human is now statue
Goodbye my Matthew

Fairytale.

Dregs of tea at the bottom of the cup
Does it hold your future, what will it be?
Picture of lightening, of darkness of love
Of unexpected fantasies fairies and gold
Fluttering wings and sweet lullabies
Fun filled laughter and sweet memories

A moving castle, a magical dream
Rainbows and many possibilities
Anything can happen if you believe
The twinkle of fairy dust, and parties
Tiny glasses clink together, in ceremony

Magical worlds that fill the time and space
From portal to portal from pace to pace
Fill your imagination with cloud and dreams
Immerse down to the deep blue sea

Believe in unicorns, so white and pure
Find me a star, let me make one wish more
Tell me a story, sing me to sleep,
Dont want to wake from this dream
What does the future hold?

The trees whisper in the breeze
Dont worry about it my dear
Listen to the flutter of wings
The dragon fire and roar of parties
Listen to your lullaby, you'll find your way
You'll find your own destiny

Dreams to Dust.

You tell me I'm pretty, Im your everything
You tell me your secrets and then you break me
You let me believe your lies and declarations
You let me dream that I was your everything


You said that you would never let me go
Told me you loved me and I believed you so
Blinded by the aurora lights over the horizon
There you stood on my own pedastool
Now I feel like such a complete fool

The times we spent together every day
Thought you loved me come what may
One path, one straight road
Was all set to marry you
Yet it wasnt meant to be
For you ruined everything
For me


The tears that fell like the waterfall
The disappointment and grief all welled up
High hopes and dreams never came around
Just bitter twists and ends full of ups and downs
These memories reside inside of my head
Despite everything I just cannot forget

There are some things that money cannot buy
That go too deep, that stay deep inside
Thought you believed in me and in us
I have no faith anymore
In love at all because
You have shattered my hopes to dust
Whatever remains is no use to anyone now
Stronger than I was before,
Was yielding but now hard as a stone
Stronger now because I must.

Ghost.

You look so drawn so white so pale
Like a ghost, from the past so frail
Saw the look on the doctors face
Words they uttered unbearable
It took all your strength not to fall
Life is disappearing earth seems small



Where are you because I dont see you
Please stay with me and fight,
Dont go away, hold on tight
Sitting by your bed every single day
Wishing, hoping and praying for a miracle
Please just open your beautiful eyes
You look so still and white and immobile



Held your hand, hoped you would squeeze it
Dared you to smile, I need you with me forever
Without you in the world I cannot live
You bring me light, and back to life



Open your deep blue water eyes
So I can kiss you and not say goodbye
So I can tell you I love you
We can have sleepless nights



We wont fight anymore
Appreciate each forevermore
Create everlasting memories
Get married, hold hands
Have breakfast in bed
Show our love to our children
All the things I want with you
So please just wake up
This cannot be the end



Like peas in a pod,
My soul mate destiny intertwined
Please wake up come back to life
Wont give up, still I believe
You helped me see possibilities
Loved me, for just being me
Move a my finger, squeeze my hand
I'll be here always by your side

Fantasy.

It was never meant to be forever

Just another hopeless endeavour

Believed you when you said you'd be there

That you'd never give up,but you leave me bare

Standing there now I see,

This was an inevitablility



We laughed, we cried, we danced

Now we are suddenly saying goodbye

Was that how you wanted it to be?

Was it all a lie, was it dream a fantasy?

Standing alone again, walls crashing down

Cant turn my frown upside down



Flash forwards and lets time travel

Find out whether we belong together

Lets go back in time and find out what went wrong

Caught between a tight throng

You caught me off guard


I dont trust you anymore



Addiction so easily found beyond,

You gave up on me,

Feel like a hangman on a string

Waiting in anticipation

Dont tell me lies, or words of advice

Dont say you love me

Theres nothing left to believe



So live your life in this other galaxy

I'm really fine, I have to be

Let me sleep and leave me be

This was all just a dream

Another stupid unrealistic fantasy.